prologue

writing is a medium that transports both the writer and the reader from their verbal existence in the reams of paper into the same physical realm they both exist, albeit initially unawares. once being aware, one observes that much of what seems to be only a personal problem is in fact what everybody experiences, and it ceases to hurt simply by telling the person who causes it.

by putting my existential problem in the book form as poems and letters i am showing where it hurts. by reading, you may tell me what the cure is, if you are not also a contributing factor of the problem we all are riddled with.

by nature, when entering the sphere of perceptive senses, elements interact dissolving the contours that separate the thought out physical from non physical realm of being, such as that of the reader from that of the read.

it was thus that while reading a japanese novel about three sisters, one, yukiko told me: “since you have not even one problem of your own, while i have one problem too many, will you please hold it while i work on other problems?” naturally i said yes, and yukiko left me with one of her problems.

then, thinking that it was not my problem, i left it as she had given, not realising then, that the problem, too, is a living element. though one does not see its non visible form, one nevertheless experiences its discomforting presence. that problem then started breeding further problems so i started looking for yukiko, and when i finally met her, said to her: “ here is your problem and all its offspring.”

“no,” said she,“for i had given you just one problem that i will take back. the rest are yours to work on.”

in physical sphere, when i had started to interact with the printed form of yukiko from the japanese novel, “sashame yuki”, from the ‘unesco library’ in bangkok, my siamese friend received a letter from japan, and the sender’s name was yukiko. i asked, and my friend gave me her address, and i wrote to her. yukiko replied, and thus in the following five years we wrote some 150 letters to each other, further enlivening her nonphysical existence, and at the same time enabling her to relate to my equally nonphysical form..

when we finally met in the physical plane we had no clue how we existed. and that created a dream in which yukiko and i were a three legged being, walking embracingly in the netherland of the midnight sun in the tropical forest; and everything was just as it would have to be. what was different was that we had the middle leg in common, from the knees down.

the first letter i had received was from a teenager yukiko, who, on physical plane had commented on my being with, “how old are you? 17? 16? 15?”

this book of poems, and also the e-book of “unamerican dreams and dissent” is an experiential state of being that may be approached only when one, the reader, also lets oneself to be in a reciprocal experiential state of existence.

thus, while reading these poems if it evokes even a minute disturbance in your mundane sphere of existence ~ and it is in the nature of being even to remove a small pebble that somehow got into the shoe to disturb, this writer would feel justified in creating a disturbance for you.

remove that which is disturbing, but not what brings forth the disturbance in your perception.

after all, it’s not just this person and yukiko who have middle leg in common, and heads apart, for, all the elements in nature are interconnected, and can exist only in interdependence. since separating the two by severing the middle leg, both of them will only fall, it is the heads that must come together. and nature has given us the various means of communication: talking with those who are close by, writing to ones who are far. And in internet and print form, when one has to convey it to more than a person or two.

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hello,

in the buddhist perception the human mind is not the physical organ, the brains. nor it is the memory that actually prevents the coming into being the process of the act of minding. mind is thus not a noun of an object, but a verb referring to the formative process of knowing what is; being aware, knowing without it becoming the knowledge; the linking of cause-effect relationship of elements in motion.

thus the book, ‘unamerican dreams and dissent’ for the matter of fact is about every thought, thing and action that all of us have in the course of our day to today living. a friend with whom this writer had a very close contact had often times argued with this writer, saying, “ it is very unlike of you to think so.” and he would ask her first to determine, whether he was that person that she thought he was.

one may see how all the various things and beings have been forming this - or any person - in the course living all throughout the years, which, too, is in the ever evolving state of being. so it has no fixed identity. some persons have tried to impose a barrier, commonly known as ‘ identity’ upon one, who is seen to be helpful to the creators and supporters of such identities. most often, such people are the ones who are close associates with soft power of affection or hard power of currency.

and unless one is prepared to alienate them all, and go alone, love -- refer to the etymology of the word: love, which is in old german; lupa, and in sanskrit: lobh, meaning greed. It is the meaning still in use, such as: love of money - and respect will continue to be used only to hide one’s fear of being left out in the cold.

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